The Awkwardness of Being Awkward

Modern society has a tendency to take a perfectly good word and run with it until it’s so overused it loses it’s meaning. Take awkward for example. People frequently describe situations by saying,”That’s so awkward,” or simply just, “awkward.” But when I describe myself as “awkward” it’s not just a cliche, I really mean it.

But what does it mean to be awkward, anyway? Here are a few definitions:

not comfortable, relaxed, or confident

embarrassing or inconvenient; caused by lack of social grace

lacking grace or ease in movement

Ok, well…I think you get the picture…

I find it fascinating to pinpoint what exactly makes me feel awkward. I think it’s a combination of nature, nurture and my own unique “I just don’t care” attitude.

So what does being awkward feel like?  It’s an awareness that I am different but constantly attempting to try to fit in despite that. It can be exhausting, frustrating but sometimes wonderful. Although I often feel out of step with the world around me that’s not always the case. Technology has found a way to bring all of us “awkwards” together and I find great comfort knowing I’m not alone.

Maybe this all sounds a bit familiar to you. If so, great! We can be awkward together. But if you’re one of the “normal” people out there and this all sounds foreign to you then take this post for what it is, valuable insight into the inner workings of someone very different from yourself.

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My Love/Hate Relationship With The Internet

If you’re reading this blog, there’s a good chance you like the internet as much as I do. It’s a wonderful tool to learn, connect and be entertained by. But yet I seem to have a constant inner struggle with wanting privacy and being willing to share aspects of my life with others.

It’s fun to be able to share your love for something with other people who love it as much as you. But at the same time, you don’t know who’s out there. It’s weird to think that literally anyone can gain access to the inner-workings of my mind, not to mention a lot of other information.

There are no easy answers. I suppose it’s just the double-edged sword that is our modern way of life. I guess just be smart, cautious and don’t post anything you wouldn’t want the whole world to see. Overall I think the benefits outweigh any hesitation I may have. 🙂

Thanks for letting me vent, now back to my regularly scheduled blogging.